Maybe start from here...

New month will be coming one day later, April here i am!!!
Day passed like a jet, wuuussshhhh so damn fast. Everything change, everything move, everything become strange. a new day will start ..
I promise I'll try to be just happy and forget how past days were hard ..
I just need to take a deep breathe and start over again ..
Wish me luck !!

Let it be...

Friendship isn't how you forget, but how you forgive...

Not how you listen, but how you understand...

Not how you see, but how you feel...
Not how you let go, but how you hold on...

Nice quote, isn't it? But a quote does not guarantee that it really  happend in our real life...
Having a friend does not guarantee that you will be happy everytime you are with..
My friend just done it on me, I don't know how, when and where it start. i only know that he suddenly talk less with me, post a state on social network that he will change his attitude. What's up? How's wrong??
I have talk about it with him, but he only said "nevermind, there is nothing gonna wrong between us"..
Okay, i think it's really nevermind. But it has been 5 days that he behaved strangely.
Be mature please! If there is something wrong with me, let's talking about..
don't say you are okay when you're not...

But that's You, who keep in silent till this time. Alright, I'll just let my heart steeled by remembering that everything in this world is have their own time. . .
There is a time to receive and  time for giving
There is a time to be happy and a time to be sad
There is a time to get and time to lose
So if this is the way we must be, let it be..
Let it be, friend...
Hope that you can remember me one day, when you feel better..

Someone else...

For You, a man who i have known last November....

I really do not know you first. Just feel i know you are a member from one organization that i joined i college, greet you as my senior, feel that you have a good attitude to me. It nice to see you, but i didn't have any strange feeling to you yet , really didn't....

For You, a man who care me without my consciousness....

It was rainy December, when i really realize who are you. You came to my dormitory house for an affair with your friends and at the time one of them was calling your name "hey ***l, this the girl", she shout. Oh just know i know your name, unintentionally....

For You, a man who make me falling in love..

This is really a surprise that i feel something strange in my heart when i saw you. I smile when i was thinking about you, no matter what the reason, i just feel so happy when i met you... :)

For You, a man who gave me a "late Christmas greeting" and "the first happy new year"...

Send me a message from one social network about Christmas greeting when Christmas was over. How bad! :( but it was a "great Christmas gift" to know that you still remember me....
do you know? a message that you have sent me in the middle night of 31st December, was myy first Happy-new-year-greeting. Thanks a lot, i am so happy :D

For You, a man who gave me "Love is a life" t-shirt...

It's nice that you were brought me a Jogja gift happily. Thanks thanks thanks

For You, a man who sit behind the keyboard during our college's Christmas Celebration...

You felt so tired at the time, right??? thank you for your keyboard playing that accompanied my singing. You know, next year you may not there with me anymore, isn't it? How silly i am! Bye bye mr. keyboardist. maybe someone will replace you there, but not here, not inside my heart...

For You, a man who borrow my calculator...

Maybe it's sound like a joke. But this is was a real fact. You send me a message "hey do you have calculator? may i borrow?" . i was so shock, you send it when i really just wake up. Oh i almost forgot, thank you for caring my Chemistry Task, although the file could not be open hahahaha

For You, a man who tell me a lie last night...

why you tell me a lie just about where you have a Sunday service? it was so hurt to know that someone i like, i love, is a liar. I didn't want to admit it to myself, but that was a reality that you told me a lie...

For You, a man who love me ...

i wanna tell you that i love you too, just be brave to say that feeling to me...
That your BIG TASK!!!! i'll be waiting for you till this 14th February, after it that not my fault if i give my heart to someone else.....

Retreat PMK 2011

I have joined to a religious organization called PMK (Persekutuan Mahasiswa Kristen) in my college since i entered to the university. All of my senior made a happy-coming-celebration for us in Pondok Bengka, Bogor.

It was so pleasant,, amazing,, wonderful,, and really cheerful celebration. i love it. Take too much photos with my friend, and it was so silly for us that we loose the memory :(
but there are some photos left in the other memory check it out... :D

 

With my senior :) like a sista for me

 

happy to be there 

 

from left renvy - defi - kelly - astri

 

really love this one

girls out

Christmas will coming soon. Many hopes that i really want to be true...

and i know that God  know what i want well..

Happy Monday! Be blessed ^^

Love...

 

WHO LOVES YOU?

Hai dearest J

It’s nice when I can write my story here. Have you read the title of my today’s posting? What do you think? Who loves you?

May be you will answer: my parents, my family, my friend or maybe your ‘b’ or ‘g’ friend

How about me? I will  answer like that too, but I must put off the last  one. Yeah cause I don’t have a lovely b’friend. Hhhuuufftt..

Many people said that it was impossible if you don’t have a b’friend on your 18^th.  How bad!!

Talking about love in this moment, when I recently enter to the university, sometime like it is not important. But finally I think, I have been wrong when I feel lonely, with anyone beside me to share. Yap my friend also have their own affair and make them can’t be always beside me. How silly I am..

Look!! I hope one day God will give me a b’friend … JJJ hahaha

I wanna S.M.I.L.E for you.. ^-^

Have you smile today? Have been? GREAT.

.

I always believe that smile can change many things in our life. A smile can make us and others feel happy,

warm the soul, health ourselves and make us look more beautiful...

No matter how uninteresting we are, a smile always can make us a little more special

And...

i wanna make you happy

i wanna make you smile

i wanna be a happy girl

i wanna be cheerfull girl

i wanna be a friendly girl

i wanna be a beautiful girl

i wanna be a healthy girl

 Because i wanna S.M.I.L.E for you everyday

 

Let's S.M.I.L.E..... ^-^

Be a real Indonesian Girl...

Just take a look at my pictures when i was in my cousin's wedding...
This is my first time wearing Kebaya, haha is that funny?

with my cousin before any touched up...

 how's look??

Kelly and Laura

and....
here we are after the touched up..

During the wedding party, Laura always ask me "Dont't i look like an old woman?" ahaha she's really hates her hair do...

The red one is my auntie with her funny pose :D
The green onee is my elder cousin, Ida. She has been a mom..

This is with my other cousin, Esra..
Ehmm i'm enjoy the party and really want join it anymore..